Trigger warnings: mental health, gender dysphoria, self harm, suicide ideation. May is Mental Health awareness month so I've decided to post something a lot different than my typical posts. Most of you don't know this but I have struggled with my mental health for almost as long as I can remember. Some months are better than others but I have spent a long time dealing with depression, anxiety, PTSD, intense emotions and mood swings and suicide ideation. My mental health has affected almost every aspect of my life, from my relationships, physical health, school and even just the ability to function.
Mental health is such an important topic, I wish that I had learned more about it when I was younger and I wish I had more people in my life that I had felt comfortable going to. For me personally, a lot of the fear of going to someone for help was due to my fear of being outed when I wasn't ready, which is one reason it so important for people to show and express that they are accepting of the lgbtq community. I hope that we can end the stigma around mental health and that it will become easier to talk about. I got this tattoo a little while ago, as Project Semicolon states, "A semicolon is used when an author could've chosen to end their sentence, but chose not to." The sentence is my life and the author is me. This tattoo carries a reminder for me that I want to keep writing my sentence. For the past few months I've been on a huge journey of self acceptance. With the help of supportive friends and family, a binder and therapy things have been improving. But I won't lie and say things are all better. It has still been hard, really hard, and there are lots of times when I still struggle. As part of my journey of self acceptance I've decided to show everyone the real me because there have been a lot of times where I've felt like I am hiding who I am. I have spent years feeling uncomfortable in my body because of low self confidence due to my self harm scars and due to what I recently discovered was gender dysphoria. I want to be done hiding who I am and hiding my body. This is me.
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AuthorMy name is Care H. I love traveling and I love writing. I have decided to start blogging about my incredible travel experiences more often. I sometimes also post about other things that are not travel related but travel is the main theme. Three things that I love to write about are travel, LGBTQI+ topics and helping others, including humanitarian and volunteer abroad experiences. I have also posted about things I've experienced while working as a CNA, mental health issues and life accomplishments.
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